Starting Over ... Again

I'm not sure what the next year will hold. I mean, none of us can ever really be sure, but I've applied to a ton of different AmeriCorps positions across the US. They are kind of like the PeaceCorps, except in the US, so I'd be working at a nonprofit for a 1-year term. All the while, I'll be applying to medical schools, mostly in the east half of the US. While I'm excited about being done with school (for now), and about starting something new, at the same time I am terrified. I don't want to start over again. But I do - I'm excited for new experiences and challenges. But I don't want to have to make new friends again. And find another church. And learn a new town. Life at college has seemed so permanent because it is home and yet so temporary because each year, and even each semester brings different people, different classes, and a different living space. There are people who have graduated and moved on, but it feels like they were just here. Come May, I get to become one of those people yet again. But the strange thing is if I visit, the people won't just not be the same, they won't even be there. We'll be spread back across the states and beyond, going back to both new and old places. But I want to keep life just as it is. I don't want to have to go through all the effort it takes to become comfortable in a new place again. I know I have made lifelong friends, and that there is always the internet, but it wont feel the same. Again. And I'm scared of being alone in this great big world.

But I desperately want to trust in Christ's plan! Mercifully he calms my fears each day and reassures me that I just have to chase after Him. May I continually do so and follow His perfect lead.